An Update?! But its been nearly 8 months...

Hello! Long time no talk, my fault sorry, so lets skip an eight month summary and focus on the things a bit more present.

I just uploaded all of my old deviantART poems...not a lot of commenting going on there, and I am kinda not really as in to that site as I used to be...kinda like what happened with Quizilla and MySpace..new things simply come a long and take their place. Its kinda sad when you think about it, how much time you put into something that is no longer a part of your world.

Anyway, a brief update. I am one of the many university students who face graduation in the near future (less than two years to be specific) and I am completely lost on what exactly I am supposed to do after I accept my degree. Ideally pay of the mountain of student debt that awaits me, but how can I do that when I have yet to figure out a career. I have asked family and friends about it, they claim that its normal...but I find this dilemma too unsettling to let it go on for too long unanswered...I thought I could be a journalist..but I have a bit of social anxiety, speaking in front of large audiences are people I don't know terrifies me. I ran out of one of my classes last week as I had to present earlier than expected, and had yet to begin my 'calm down and breathe, you need to get through this somehow without passing out' exercises. My info was sound at least..somehow got an A..yay?

So here I am again, lost in transition between student life and career life. I phrase it as such, because calling something post school the 'real world' is illogical. What part of being a student no matter what grade isn't the real world or real life. We have impossible deadlines to meet, agonizing exams that prevent proper eating, make it impossible to sleep soundly for more than a few hours, and send you into a caffiene overdose so high that you won't come down from it for weeks after exam prep periods. Probably why there are usually holidays following exams. Oh, and not to mention the brain drain and state of mental exhaustion come your final exam. I love reading and writing, but trying to memorize numerous facts and theories in a short time...probably isn't healthy.

School stuff aside, if anyone is like me they are too busy to get even a proper part time job and struggle financially throughout school. Starving Student anyone? If it wasn't for my boyfriend and family for a support system, I wouldn't be able to handle all of the exams, money pains, and dramatic incidents that come with dealing with the public everyday - first group assignment this year, lets just say I am not a fan- let alone trying to stay sane from all of my personal quelms these days. What part of all of that isn't real life, or dealing with the real world?

But enough complaining, Christmas is coming, I for one am excited. Took a while to sort out the details, but it was all worth it. I just need to get through the next two weeks of exam anxiety and then simply relax and enjoy my wonderful twenty-four days off.

I'm going to cut it a bit short today...limited sleep last night for some reason, leaves me a tad on the moody rant side and you've had to deal with that enough today. I promise to at least try to discuss something  a bit more important to the world come my next update.

Until then, have a good day. And if you're in exams like me, work hard, don't sell yourself short, and most importantly don't forget to breathe. So remember your health, both physical and mental, exams are tough, but you control how they affect you in the end. Good Luck

~ Jasmine